I was in the air defence as a volunteer lone soldier, already had a war with Iran, yet feel a lot of fomo and guilt for not being with my guys now, I’m not even in Israel. I was really going mad before, now I’m a bit calmer but still.
It’s stupid, I know what it was like, I’ve fired many $100ks of missiles. I also know it’s not all fun and action … still my brain is irrational.
Sometimes I feel like joining the army only made the bug grow instead of quash it…