I am not a novice reader, but Crime and Punishment was still a disturbing and exhausting experience in a deep psychological way. It is a book that creates anxiety, moral vertigo, and a strange pull that keeps drawing you back. Whenever I put the book down there was a thick, fluid, flowy feeling pushing me toward picking it up again, like an appetite I could not name or recognize.
This is a deep psychological and philosophical novel about how humans justify their actions. Raskolnikov’s belief that extraordinary people have the right to remove obstacles, even human beings, is disturbing because historical examples make the idea sound believable.
The world of the novel is poverty-stricken and the lives of poor people are portrayed vividly, cramped rooms, hunger, humiliation, and struggle. The environment feels oppressive and real, and the psychology of the characters grows out of that poverty.
At times the novel feels exhausting. Russians in this story seem overdramatic, almost like drama queens, and they do not do any business without making a fuss of it. Most characters are too talkative and there are too many monologues. Conversations often turn into long speeches.
Still, despite being exhausting at times, the novel is powerful. It produces anxiety, moral tension, and deep psychological reflection. It is not just a story about a crime but about the human mind trying to justify wrongdoing and live with guilt.
Raskolnikov, the main character, does not feel fully in his senses altogether throughout the course of the story, specially after the crime. He does things abruptly, walks away abruptly, and starts and ends things abruptly. His behavior often feels unstable and feverish rather than rational.
One of the strongest impressions from the book is how grave sins are justified by people. Often a person first convinces himself that others are wrong, and that is why he does what he does. Even when guilt appears later, that guilt does not necessarily mean real remorse. Even when people try to repent, they are still thinking about themselves.
It is a heavy and intense book, but one that stays with you long after finishing it. #entertainment