th a good camera builded from styrofoam. Have anybody made…
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th a good camera builded from styrofoam. Have anybody made something like that before or something similar?
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source Depression and being upset at God
Thank you for anyone who takes the time to respond to this.
I’m going through an extremely difficult period in my life, and my mental health has been really bad. I am on medication and in therapy.
On top of this, I can’t shake the feeling of being so deeply upset at or betrayed by God. Why would God hurt me like this, or allow me to be this hurt? What did I do? I cry and pray every single day, I make it to shul when I can, but I just feel alone and hopeless. Maybe this is a selfish or immature view, but that's what it feels like.
After a long and difficult process, I completed my m!kveh last year (Conservative, though I'm also patrilineal). So there is an added level of shame that maybe I was not cut out for this after all. I know the stock response that we wrestle with God and that being upset with God is part of the relationship sometimes. But I’m just in so much pain. I feel like I don’t want to do mitzvot anymore, it feels like the relationship is broken down, I feel angry. I even wrote this on shabbat. I am not perfect about observance already and it feels like maybe this is punishment for that and I am scared if I drop more observance then things will just get worse for me. Devarim for example is so clear about how if you don't follow the mitzvot, you will have a horrible life.
I guess I am just looking for if anyone has any advice, words, or experiences with this kind of thing. I really appreciate it.
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#technology
source Depression and being upset at God
Thank you for anyone who takes the time to respond to this.
I’m going through an extremely difficult period in my life, and my mental health has been really bad. I am on medication and in therapy.
On top of this, I can’t shake the feeling of being so deeply upset at or betrayed by God. Why would God hurt me like this, or allow me to be this hurt? What did I do? I cry and pray every single day, I make it to shul when I can, but I just feel alone and hopeless. Maybe this is a selfish or immature view, but that's what it feels like.
After a long and difficult process, I completed my m!kveh last year (Conservative, though I'm also patrilineal). So there is an added level of shame that maybe I was not cut out for this after all. I know the stock response that we wrestle with God and that being upset with God is part of the relationship sometimes. But I’m just in so much pain. I feel like I don’t want to do mitzvot anymore, it feels like the relationship is broken down, I feel angry. I even wrote this on shabbat. I am not perfect about observance already and it feels like maybe this is punishment for that and I am scared if I drop more observance then things will just get worse for me. Devarim for example is so clear about how if you don't follow the mitzvot, you will have a horrible life.
I guess I am just looking for if anyone has any advice, words, or experiences with this kind of thing. I really appreciate it.
#religion
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