Tifu by saying I love you This will probably be the worse memory of my life that caused a chain reaction of events that made my life miserable for two and a half years.This was back when I was still with my ex. We had just started dating, so we were still fresh into the whole relationship thing, not really even DTR’d yet. So maybe seeing each other more than five times but less than 10. I had been on the dating scene for so long that I got to the point where when I got with him I knew he’d be the last guy I dated …..cos then I’d just die alone.So one day I go to his place, we pick up some of his friends and go to his cousins place for the evening to just hang out. That’s when it happened. The worst mistake of my life. He was driving my car and he wanted to do something stupid on the road like race the guy next to us or something, and I said it “I love you but……” honestly the last part escapes me. It was something like I love you but don’t you dare, or I love you but don’t be stupid… It was one of those phrases you use in English so naturally “I love you but…” (only me? ) I regretted it the moment I said it because I didn’t mean it. Id only been seeing this man for maybe a month by then. And I felt so stupid after saying it because to him it meant more than just words to me because all he heard was I love you. This unfortunately caused the beginning of misery for me. And truth be told, at the time i thought “fuck it” at least I’m not single anymore, Ill just deal with all the bullfuckery that was going on in my life, because that’s what people did. They got into relationships and worked at it and worked at it and worked. So I thought that’s just what I had to do. Eventually the feeling of love came? Maybe? Still don’t know… maybe it was more of a feeling of dependency since he made me so broke and owed me so much money that I felt the only reason to stay was so he could pay me back. I was stupid. Another tifu To this day I don’t know if I ever really loved him, or I just didn’t want to be alone.I did eventually leave him when I lost my job. When I had no way of supporting myself I thought I’d rather struggle like this alone than have him trying to help in our relationship and I’m utter miserable.Lesson learned.