am i bohot zyada cooked? Umm, I hope you wont judge me…
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am i bohot zyada cooked?
Umm, I hope you wont judge me. So, I am 19 yo boy persuing BS in Data Science and Math ( Math is fun) , thora bohot burger because my family pampered me alot tou this thing caused alot of problems later such as lack of confidence and hardwork. I get tired easily.
Until I was 13, we were financially doing good phir my father became seriously ill, which forced us to shut down the business. Us sy jo pesa nikla he partnered up with his younger brother ( He was a freelancer). We worked on Fiverr for like 4-5 years ( MANN it was soo good) I have an experience of freelancing ( like managing account, handelling clients and convince them to make deals with us) from little I got exposure of many fields, because we were working in graphics design field, tou I learnt graphic designing too from one of our designers ( he was nca graduate). Phir fiverr pe accounts kharab ho gye or uske baad fiverr ke haal theek nahi rahy so we didn't persue it. Uske baad baba tried some things ( didnt work) Phir he was diagnosed with chronic depression, therapist and cardiologist advised him to not work, drive and think negative things. Khair my dad is an elder sibling ( he helped his younger siblings alot but apni dafa they were kinda mean, not puri tarah but they were.
Oh, I also used to go to my other chachu's bsuiness to learn how to deal with poeple and how the world works yk ( He runs a good construction equipment rental setup, basically he provided equimpents used in construction on rent ) I managed that for 1 year and a hald ig also phirI understod he's kinda mean so, yk i left )
Long story short,
so we are 4 siblings my dad and mom with NO source of income ( we live in joint family tou bread and butter are not itni problem but deep down it is ) and as an elder son, it is my responsibilty to yk provide them things.
Also I love studying, unlike other people my age, I dont hate studying and i dont think that parhai is a waste of time. My views are different.
lekin the problem is ab 3rd semester ki fee ajani within a month and I dont know kese hoga plus mere dusry siblings ka bhi. Also, I am dating a girl ( We have been together for 4-5 years, shes a very good partner alhumdulillah PLZ DONT JUDGE THANK YOU) yk how pakistani moms they jus want to get their daughters marry asap and I dont wanna lose her ( lekin ese tou rishta nahi milyga obv, plus shes taller than me and her ammi is thori si desi auntie yk tou smol height is a taboo in this society abhi tak plus larka financially itnay bury haalaat me hy)
In the name of assets, We have a 1 canal ka ghar of around 5-5.5 crores
Lekin in this ghar there are 5 shares ( grandparents ka, mere baba ka, meri phupho ka or 2 shares mere 2 chachu ke )
Situation yeh hy ke mere 2 chachu are theek thaak apni jagah pe and they live alag, my grandparents have realised all the unfair things they did with my dad plus they love us ( grandchildern) and unki baqi aulaad is well settled idts wo humary ilawa kisi ko share dengy apna, my phupho is not mean plus shes getting married to a very nice guy, shell go abroad tou she wont need the property plus she is very humble.
Mera concern yeh hy ke yeh ghar me un sb ka bhi share hy tou kya pata kab kon apna share maang ly agly 8-10 saal me ( As they are ameer apni apni jagah plus they live alag alag ( ofcourse unka haq hai)) lekin tab humary pas pese to nhi hongy itny ke unko dy saken tou ultimately ghr sale krna pryga tou well be homeless, plus utny pese leke hum kahien or kidher jayengy kisi achi jagah pe tou ghr bhi ni ly skaengy blah blah.
Mere chachu ny mere baba sy kaha ke aap log financially bht weak hain plus yeh ghr bhi apki koi security nhi hy ammi abbu will give you apny hissay ka share too, plus you guys should make a deal with ( my puhpho ) ke aap humy share dy den ( as a loan) and she will agree to it. Phir from the money of 3 shares ap log apna alag ghar bana sakengy sab ki tarah. ( What do you guys think?)
Plus from the money of 3 shares, how much jagah should we buy ke un pesu me apna acha ghar bhi bana saken. ( lda yan kisi aysi descent society mein lhr me)
Baba said aysa bhi ho skta ke ek canal ka bana len phir pese nahi bachengy kuch or krny ke, 10 marly ka bana len tou kuch pese bach jayengy jis sy business ke thory bht pese ajayengy yan mujhe studies ke liye abroad bhejny ke for better future
yan 5 marly ka ( hum abhi rahy nahi itny choty ghr me tou bht suffocating hojayega humary liye)
What are your views the ghar wali baat?
My main goal is to have a descent ghar ek descent sa source of income and to marry the love of my life ( ik its not easy, my nights are sleepless from pichly 2-2.5 saal, Ive become very weak and eyes have sunked in due to ajeeb si condition, constant stress rehta hai ( the only negative thing abt my girl is she fights alot ), Everyday in my life feels like hell.
Skills : conceptual graphic deisgning ( practically very weak), i write very well ( mere literature ke teachers used to compliments me alot ),i love to explain things ( i can teach ), i am hafiz too ( with good tajweed and qiraat), kuch kuc youtube automation bhi ati hy, managed a business ( a very practical one infleid ) for almost 2 years, i have an expericne of 5 years as a freelancer. plus thora mad creative mind hai ( consistency bht bari problem hy).
If we think of going abroad, my phupho's husband is a data sicnetist in kuwait planning to move euroupe wali side, and my chachu is a canadian banker ( my phupho's husband is zyada nice and supportive person than my chachu )
GANG I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO
I AM LITERALLY DYING FROM INSIDE
I mean i cant explain, the fears, the insults, the hardships. Bas yehi cheezyn revolve krti rehti hyn sara sara din. I thought of ki|ling myself but hafiz hun tou ik the consequences very well, tou i cantt die itna willingly ( man i just wanna escape from the problems agar selfish hoke sochu, or agr normally sochun tou yeh sab kuch solve krna hy lekin pata nahi)
I dont even know why I am writing this stuff on internet
#current_events #local
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Umm, I hope you wont judge me. So, I am 19 yo boy persuing BS in Data Science and Math ( Math is fun) , thora bohot burger because my family pampered me alot tou this thing caused alot of problems later such as lack of confidence and hardwork. I get tired easily.
Until I was 13, we were financially doing good phir my father became seriously ill, which forced us to shut down the business. Us sy jo pesa nikla he partnered up with his younger brother ( He was a freelancer). We worked on Fiverr for like 4-5 years ( MANN it was soo good) I have an experience of freelancing ( like managing account, handelling clients and convince them to make deals with us) from little I got exposure of many fields, because we were working in graphics design field, tou I learnt graphic designing too from one of our designers ( he was nca graduate). Phir fiverr pe accounts kharab ho gye or uske baad fiverr ke haal theek nahi rahy so we didn't persue it. Uske baad baba tried some things ( didnt work) Phir he was diagnosed with chronic depression, therapist and cardiologist advised him to not work, drive and think negative things. Khair my dad is an elder sibling ( he helped his younger siblings alot but apni dafa they were kinda mean, not puri tarah but they were.
Oh, I also used to go to my other chachu's bsuiness to learn how to deal with poeple and how the world works yk ( He runs a good construction equipment rental setup, basically he provided equimpents used in construction on rent ) I managed that for 1 year and a hald ig also phirI understod he's kinda mean so, yk i left )
Long story short,
so we are 4 siblings my dad and mom with NO source of income ( we live in joint family tou bread and butter are not itni problem but deep down it is ) and as an elder son, it is my responsibilty to yk provide them things.
Also I love studying, unlike other people my age, I dont hate studying and i dont think that parhai is a waste of time. My views are different.
lekin the problem is ab 3rd semester ki fee ajani within a month and I dont know kese hoga plus mere dusry siblings ka bhi. Also, I am dating a girl ( We have been together for 4-5 years, shes a very good partner alhumdulillah PLZ DONT JUDGE THANK YOU) yk how pakistani moms they jus want to get their daughters marry asap and I dont wanna lose her ( lekin ese tou rishta nahi milyga obv, plus shes taller than me and her ammi is thori si desi auntie yk tou smol height is a taboo in this society abhi tak plus larka financially itnay bury haalaat me hy)
In the name of assets, We have a 1 canal ka ghar of around 5-5.5 crores
Lekin in this ghar there are 5 shares ( grandparents ka, mere baba ka, meri phupho ka or 2 shares mere 2 chachu ke )
Situation yeh hy ke mere 2 chachu are theek thaak apni jagah pe and they live alag, my grandparents have realised all the unfair things they did with my dad plus they love us ( grandchildern) and unki baqi aulaad is well settled idts wo humary ilawa kisi ko share dengy apna, my phupho is not mean plus shes getting married to a very nice guy, shell go abroad tou she wont need the property plus she is very humble.
Mera concern yeh hy ke yeh ghar me un sb ka bhi share hy tou kya pata kab kon apna share maang ly agly 8-10 saal me ( As they are ameer apni apni jagah plus they live alag alag ( ofcourse unka haq hai)) lekin tab humary pas pese to nhi hongy itny ke unko dy saken tou ultimately ghr sale krna pryga tou well be homeless, plus utny pese leke hum kahien or kidher jayengy kisi achi jagah pe tou ghr bhi ni ly skaengy blah blah.
Mere chachu ny mere baba sy kaha ke aap log financially bht weak hain plus yeh ghr bhi apki koi security nhi hy ammi abbu will give you apny hissay ka share too, plus you guys should make a deal with ( my puhpho ) ke aap humy share dy den ( as a loan) and she will agree to it. Phir from the money of 3 shares ap log apna alag ghar bana sakengy sab ki tarah. ( What do you guys think?)
Plus from the money of 3 shares, how much jagah should we buy ke un pesu me apna acha ghar bhi bana saken. ( lda yan kisi aysi descent society mein lhr me)
Baba said aysa bhi ho skta ke ek canal ka bana len phir pese nahi bachengy kuch or krny ke, 10 marly ka bana len tou kuch pese bach jayengy jis sy business ke thory bht pese ajayengy yan mujhe studies ke liye abroad bhejny ke for better future
yan 5 marly ka ( hum abhi rahy nahi itny choty ghr me tou bht suffocating hojayega humary liye)
What are your views the ghar wali baat?
My main goal is to have a descent ghar ek descent sa source of income and to marry the love of my life ( ik its not easy, my nights are sleepless from pichly 2-2.5 saal, Ive become very weak and eyes have sunked in due to ajeeb si condition, constant stress rehta hai ( the only negative thing abt my girl is she fights alot ), Everyday in my life feels like hell.
Skills : conceptual graphic deisgning ( practically very weak), i write very well ( mere literature ke teachers used to compliments me alot ),i love to explain things ( i can teach ), i am hafiz too ( with good tajweed and qiraat), kuch kuc youtube automation bhi ati hy, managed a business ( a very practical one infleid ) for almost 2 years, i have an expericne of 5 years as a freelancer. plus thora mad creative mind hai ( consistency bht bari problem hy).
If we think of going abroad, my phupho's husband is a data sicnetist in kuwait planning to move euroupe wali side, and my chachu is a canadian banker ( my phupho's husband is zyada nice and supportive person than my chachu )
GANG I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO
I AM LITERALLY DYING FROM INSIDE
I mean i cant explain, the fears, the insults, the hardships. Bas yehi cheezyn revolve krti rehti hyn sara sara din. I thought of ki|ling myself but hafiz hun tou ik the consequences very well, tou i cantt die itna willingly ( man i just wanna escape from the problems agar selfish hoke sochu, or agr normally sochun tou yeh sab kuch solve krna hy lekin pata nahi)
I dont even know why I am writing this stuff on internet
#current_events #local
source
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