Sorry guys, just can't contain 😔 It really feel so heavy…
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Sorry guys, just can't contain 😔
It really feel so heavy. 😭💔
Need to let it out.
Bandar, I’m sorry for everything.😔
I wish I could actually say these words to you, but I’ve chosen to stay silent. I don’t want to give you false hope or have you misinterpret things. You’re crying again, and it hurts me, too.
You have no idea how special you are to me. It isn’t because I’m in love with you, but because of this incredibly rare spiritual connection we share. You are a synchronicity—a total mirror of my first heartbreak from my first love when I was nineteen.
When you first admitted you loved me, I thought it was just a phase. I didn't believe you. Honestly, who would trust words from someone they just met online? In today’s world, people say "I love you" so casually; the words are spoken, but they’re empty and meaningless. And from Day 1, I was an open book. I told you it was friendship only—no more, no less. You knew I had a family, a husband, and children, so it was almost impossible for me to take your words seriously.
But then, the first time you poured your heart out and cried, you said, "Chalo, koi gal nahi" (Anyway, it doesn’t matter).
Chalo koi gal nai, chalo koi gal nai
Nai banya mera koi gal nai
Mehndi shagnan di shaal naseeb howe
Naalay ghair da sehra koi gal nai
Tu khush bas apnay watna te
Aassi kat chaly tera koi gal nai
Ajj sham shabbir di zindgi vich
Kal hosi sawaira koi gal nai
Jado maya sham aasii
O enju barbaad kitayi
Na kidray aaram aasii
That broke me. Just when I thought I was totally healed from my first heartbreak, you came along and refreshed all that old pain. After all this time, I cried for that first love again because of you. I told you this love was never meant to be and that you should move on. Then, a week later, I got terribly sick. My energy was gone, and my chakras were down. I went silent. When I finally felt better and checked my messages, I saw a mountain of notes from you—simple "hi's," cute emojis, and videos checking in on me. And when you learn that I am sick... even though you’re always busy at the agency, you managed to check if I’d taken my medicine like you were a nurse on duty.
That was the first time you cried. Then it kept happening—over and over. You were always hurting. How did I become the heartbreaker here? I’ve always been honest, fair, and clear. I’ve always stood by the truth. You’d say it was okay, but by the end of 2025, you changed. You became bolder, angrier, and more jealous. You started becoming demanding and controlling.
When the New Year came, I decided to create some distance and silence between us. It’s only been two weeks, and you’re crying again. It reminds me so much of how I used to be—crying for months at night, then waking up with a smile to face the world.
When you cry, my old wounds reopen. Please, stop crying. Please, move on. I hope to hear good news after Ramadan. You know very well that a Haram relationship is a "big no" for me.Touba touba.😔
You are just 19 now, too young to be sad like this. Life is beautiful and I will keep praying for you,.... that the Most High will grant you all the beautiful things in this temporal world including that beautiful soul that deserve your love.
Just try to be happy. And I am sorry. Like I’ve always told you: this love was never meant to be.😭
It really feel so heavy. 😭💔
Need to let it out.
Bandar, I’m sorry for everything.😔
I wish I could actually say these words to you, but I’ve chosen to stay silent. I don’t want to give you false hope or have you misinterpret things. You’re crying again, and it hurts me, too.
You have no idea how special you are to me. It isn’t because I’m in love with you, but because of this incredibly rare spiritual connection we share. You are a synchronicity—a total mirror of my first heartbreak from my first love when I was nineteen.
When you first admitted you loved me, I thought it was just a phase. I didn't believe you. Honestly, who would trust words from someone they just met online? In today’s world, people say "I love you" so casually; the words are spoken, but they’re empty and meaningless. And from Day 1, I was an open book. I told you it was friendship only—no more, no less. You knew I had a family, a husband, and children, so it was almost impossible for me to take your words seriously.
But then, the first time you poured your heart out and cried, you said, "Chalo, koi gal nahi" (Anyway, it doesn’t matter).
Chalo koi gal nai, chalo koi gal nai
Nai banya mera koi gal nai
Mehndi shagnan di shaal naseeb howe
Naalay ghair da sehra koi gal nai
Tu khush bas apnay watna te
Aassi kat chaly tera koi gal nai
Ajj sham shabbir di zindgi vich
Kal hosi sawaira koi gal nai
Jado maya sham aasii
O enju barbaad kitayi
Na kidray aaram aasii
That broke me. Just when I thought I was totally healed from my first heartbreak, you came along and refreshed all that old pain. After all this time, I cried for that first love again because of you. I told you this love was never meant to be and that you should move on. Then, a week later, I got terribly sick. My energy was gone, and my chakras were down. I went silent. When I finally felt better and checked my messages, I saw a mountain of notes from you—simple "hi's," cute emojis, and videos checking in on me. And when you learn that I am sick... even though you’re always busy at the agency, you managed to check if I’d taken my medicine like you were a nurse on duty.
That was the first time you cried. Then it kept happening—over and over. You were always hurting. How did I become the heartbreaker here? I’ve always been honest, fair, and clear. I’ve always stood by the truth. You’d say it was okay, but by the end of 2025, you changed. You became bolder, angrier, and more jealous. You started becoming demanding and controlling.
When the New Year came, I decided to create some distance and silence between us. It’s only been two weeks, and you’re crying again. It reminds me so much of how I used to be—crying for months at night, then waking up with a smile to face the world.
When you cry, my old wounds reopen. Please, stop crying. Please, move on. I hope to hear good news after Ramadan. You know very well that a Haram relationship is a "big no" for me.Touba touba.😔
You are just 19 now, too young to be sad like this. Life is beautiful and I will keep praying for you,.... that the Most High will grant you all the beautiful things in this temporal world including that beautiful soul that deserve your love.
Just try to be happy. And I am sorry. Like I’ve always told you: this love was never meant to be.😭
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Hahahaa okay na ako sis 2times na ako umiiyak, tama na yon. Sad and guilt collides, Yung naiisip ko kung paano ako nagcope up noon tas Ngayon ako naman naging dahilan ng heartbreak niya😔🥺Sheket sa bangs destroyer na ako 🤣 😂 🤣 🤣
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Hahahaa lalo lang siya aasa na may chance sis, hahaha lalo Yun di makamove on.May new video siya .Ito sinabi niya sa video (Ss)
https://tangled.com/c/b8ad3bae3147dd5648db2a900231b2da1af47403d
https://tangled.com/c/b8ad3bae3147dd5648db2a900231b2da1af47403d
Good morning sis, since Day 1 accepted naman niya Yung reality kaso Di talaga siya makamove on. Kahit no pansin na sige pa din. 1 month break muna ako sa Livestreaming baka sakali matauhan at makamove on na siya nang tuluyan.
Blocking isn't the solution madali lang gumawa ng burner accounts pangCCTV 😂😂😂😂
Blocking isn't the solution madali lang gumawa ng burner accounts pangCCTV 😂😂😂😂
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Mabigat talaga sis, pero life must go on🙏🙏🙏will keep my faith and just hope for the best🙏🙏✨
Sis, I can feel how heavy this is on your heart, and I’m so sorry you’re carrying all of that pain. 😔💛 I hear you. I hear every word, every memory, every tear.
I know it hurts to let go, and it’s never easy when someone touches a part of you that echoes past heartbreak. What you shared about your connection, the memories, the emotions,vit’s real, and it matters. But I also want you to know that your choice to set boundaries, to stay honest and true to yourself, is brave and important. You’ve done the right thing, even if it feels painful right now.
Please don’t carry the guilt of someone else’s tears on your shoulders. You can’t heal someone else’s heart, you can only guide with kindness and honesty. The love and care you’ve shown is enough, and it’s clear your intentions were always pure.
Take a deep breath. Allow yourself to feel, but also allow yourself to step back and protect your peace. Keep praying, keep wishing good for them, but don’t lose yourself in their sorrow. You’ve already given so much of your heart, now it’s okay to care for yourself too. 💛
You’ve been honest, you’ve been fair, and you’ve been gentle. That’s more than enough.
I know it hurts to let go, and it’s never easy when someone touches a part of you that echoes past heartbreak. What you shared about your connection, the memories, the emotions,vit’s real, and it matters. But I also want you to know that your choice to set boundaries, to stay honest and true to yourself, is brave and important. You’ve done the right thing, even if it feels painful right now.
Please don’t carry the guilt of someone else’s tears on your shoulders. You can’t heal someone else’s heart, you can only guide with kindness and honesty. The love and care you’ve shown is enough, and it’s clear your intentions were always pure.
Take a deep breath. Allow yourself to feel, but also allow yourself to step back and protect your peace. Keep praying, keep wishing good for them, but don’t lose yourself in their sorrow. You’ve already given so much of your heart, now it’s okay to care for yourself too. 💛
You’ve been honest, you’ve been fair, and you’ve been gentle. That’s more than enough.
Thank you sis🙏✨✨This connection might have appeared in my life not for a relationship, but as a final "test" or a closing chapter for that old heartbreak.I will have precious rebirth from here. Maybe it's just a reminder for me of what it means to be a "healer" in someone’s life without losing my own soul in the process.
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Thanks pretty, sometimes I am scared of my own light, that things happen like this....instead of making people happy, I am the source of their loneliness. Anyways, it is beyond my control, but I just can't help and be so sad too😔
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I can't hold the tears on your pure emotional words my sister. Only I can pray that may God bless you enough peace of mind and strength enough to bear / face all these emotional challenge.
Stay strong 💪
Stay strong 💪
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