life feels so meaningless I worked with a YouTuber and…
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life feels so meaningless
I worked with a YouTuber and just lost my job due to his government shenanigans I always spent my time working so i never really had time to think about other stuff. PS: I am 19 years old. I feel useless and bored I wanna do so much things in life go out have fun make friends learn stuff and work as well but that’s like low priority obviously. I have very nice parents in there own way but there protection kinda seems like too much and I feel suffocated in my life. Me and my brother are both shy and introverted neither confident to talk or do anything surprisingly my sister isn’t, my parents always pointed out what to say what not to say if you say something to someone like relative or cousin or friend they will make sure to embarrass you (talking about things that don’t even matter) so now I just don’t get the courage to speak. I love the idea of being free, happy, living and enjoying the life more than just working. I know work is important that’s why I have been working for past 3 years and I still am looking but my life never had that work life balance cause my life is just stuck between work and doom scrolling. I have so many goals to achieve but my parents made me live in a cage all my life that they are scared to let me go and live. I have only been outside 2 times with my friend and only that after turning 19. I just don’t know what to do how to live and enjoy the life is mine but it feels like someone else is writing the story and I’m just narrating what they are writing. Also, I am not normal either I don’t feel attracted to women and don’t want to spend my life with a women and make her live with me as she will basically not get the physical intimacy that a straight male would provide ( yes I am attracted to male, kinda weird saying it out) . I have no idea what to do, I want to control my feelings I have tried to hide it so much and want to lose this feeling but my brain and body refuses. If someone who is more knowledgeable can guide me, I would be forever grateful.
Sorry for the bad English and long post. There’s so much more I wanna say but that would make it too long.
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I worked with a YouTuber and just lost my job due to his government shenanigans I always spent my time working so i never really had time to think about other stuff. PS: I am 19 years old. I feel useless and bored I wanna do so much things in life go out have fun make friends learn stuff and work as well but that’s like low priority obviously. I have very nice parents in there own way but there protection kinda seems like too much and I feel suffocated in my life. Me and my brother are both shy and introverted neither confident to talk or do anything surprisingly my sister isn’t, my parents always pointed out what to say what not to say if you say something to someone like relative or cousin or friend they will make sure to embarrass you (talking about things that don’t even matter) so now I just don’t get the courage to speak. I love the idea of being free, happy, living and enjoying the life more than just working. I know work is important that’s why I have been working for past 3 years and I still am looking but my life never had that work life balance cause my life is just stuck between work and doom scrolling. I have so many goals to achieve but my parents made me live in a cage all my life that they are scared to let me go and live. I have only been outside 2 times with my friend and only that after turning 19. I just don’t know what to do how to live and enjoy the life is mine but it feels like someone else is writing the story and I’m just narrating what they are writing. Also, I am not normal either I don’t feel attracted to women and don’t want to spend my life with a women and make her live with me as she will basically not get the physical intimacy that a straight male would provide ( yes I am attracted to male, kinda weird saying it out) . I have no idea what to do, I want to control my feelings I have tried to hide it so much and want to lose this feeling but my brain and body refuses. If someone who is more knowledgeable can guide me, I would be forever grateful.
Sorry for the bad English and long post. There’s so much more I wanna say but that would make it too long.
#local #current_events
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