Being in a world where nobody truly wants to understand you is hard.
When I try to connect with someone whom I feel I need, there are always some restrictions.
In my entire life, I have never had a relationship. When I feel that I need someone and want him by my side, all I can do is keep my mouth shut and my heart closed.
Somehow, that affects my other friendships, my connections with people, and even my relationship with my family.
I no longer feel the things that a normal person would feel. I didn’t realize it until I came to university.
Being gay in a highly toxic society is very hard.
Even though I am an adult now, and some people have found the person and the kind of gay love they were looking for, I still haven’t.
Whenever I open myself up to someone, he is already taken. Someone’s family has found out that he is gay. Someone else simply doesn’t match my requirements.