.... there's that awkward feeling of guilt for something we don't even know , an unexplained magnet toward those who abandon us.
whatever reasons we can find, hear, or discover, it's still pulling back to that person.
the worst, when you live like a cactus your entire life (protective) then blossom with someone , at some point ,he/she vanish. leaving you behind in black hole without a single word, without clue.
and yes,some people are meant to stay in the heart also as a wound.
you just sent me back to old lessons... and it's good to remember . beautiful words zhazha