So today is my birthday, I've learned to keep my expectations low, but for some reason it hurts today, I thought someone would care, someone would remember, but nothing, no text, no message, nothing not even from my family, so ya, I'm not sure what to think, feel this weird calm and empty, on top of that just lost my job, so ya there's that, anyways sorry for blabbering here, I'll go sleep now, gotta act normal again tomorrow, gotta grind and get a stable source again. #local source