For my whole life growing up I have felt like people don’t enjoy my presence. From being left out to being insulted both as a joke and seriously in a way that feels out of the blue.
Last week my co worker told me im annoying “as a joke” and today another one said the new employees are smarter than me
I can usually distinguish jokes from truth and am always down for some sarcastic banter but this wasnt that.
Im not sure why people have an aversion to me. A part of me thinks i might be a little autistic and its off putting. i know im a bit socially awkward sometimes and not in a cute way.
Its just disappointing and disheartening to always feel like an outcast. I should maybe preface with the fact that i am a young woman and men tend to be more forgiving about my personality i feel like
idk what to do anymore. i just want to feel like i belong. I know Im not perfect but nobody is and i try so hard to be good and fair to people