I feel redundant when I start conversations, I feel like I'm making weird for the person the I'm talking with, it's like they don't even enjoy talking with me and wait for it to be over so I escape as soon as I can-even ıf It's goes well- or don't talk with people at all. (I dont know when to stop and leave should I leave or am I leaving early?) And I asaume because of that I cant be close with anyone. İts Almost my third year in highschool and even I suprised how Im THAT lonely, thats doesn't feels right. Also I feel shame because I couldn't say anything during some my clasmates difficult times. Thats makes me hold back from trying to talk with them more cus how could I possibly not be able to say a single word? Anyways Im trying, and they aren't so hesitant to interact with me anymore thats something I guess .Maybe starting over will be better but idk where can I meet new people and I'm scread. I dont understand why I dont know how to socialise naturally, I just hope I can learn and It's not my curse #relationships source