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Love is so Confusing
I'm unsure what to tag this. But, this been clouding my mind for the past days.
For the background I'm a Neet(not in employment, education, or training), so I lack social cues. And English is not my first language.
Few weeks ago I started being a mutual with a fellow cosplayer. We've been close since we meet at an idol recruit, and fortunately we passed. And for last week, our idol group were performing at an idol festival far from our home city. So we have to meet up there from Friday to Saturday for practice, and finally Sunday for our performance. We then decided to stayed at hotel together to save up some money for a day. Since my home is about 3 hours and half away, I go back home on Friday night, and only stayed at the hotel for Saturday night.
At Friday, when I arrived at the train station we finally met and just hit it off quick. She's friendly, and all. So it's just really a nice experience. We hangout for about an hour and a half since we start practice at 5 pm, and I got there at 3 pm. She's attentive I would say, not pushy. Before we go to practice, she order us a cab. At practice she's overall keep looking for what time my train supposed to leave and remind me. She even goes to the station with me to pick up her suitcase. So idk- (i feel a little confuse). But bcs of that I get to catch my train, so I feel a little touched.
At Saturday, I once again back at the train station. I inform her that I got there, yara yara. Order a cab, and finally arrived at our shared hotel. Then I called her that I'm finally there, she get out of the hotel and immediately help with my suitcase. I follow her inside and just thanks her repeatedly (cz what can u do atp). When we arrived at our room, it's one bed(i totally forgot about that part). I act cool about it since it's not a small bed. We hang around for 15 minutes before finally go to practice. Practice goes as usual and we go back at the hotel. She took a shower first and then me. To my horror, we didn't get a soap Ó╭╮Ò. So I called out from the bathroom to use hers. Afterwards I change into my coords, and asked if we can go to convenient store. As we walk there, she keep holding my hand, saying that the other side of the road have too much men hanging around, so it's not safe (ok queen). And that's goes each time we go there. So I feel a little weirded out in a best way(?). When we back at the hotel we just hanging out and talk on the bed with my music playing in the background. Suddenly a song played (sailor by Gigi), and she started tweaking (?) idk the word but something like that. We then started talking about our past situationship and laughing about it. Yara yara we go to sleep.
At Sunday morning. I woken up by her alarm, loud ass alarm. So I just crawl over and turn it off, causing her to wake up. She turn up the ac temperatures, and goes back to bed again. I can't go back to sleep and started playing some song. Somehow she called me 'bby (bi-bi)' and ask if I'm awake. I just said yeah, ur alarm is too loud. And she started crawling fetal position at me. Defo I'm panicking internally, and just asked 'are you cold?'. She nodded and I patted her shoulder out of confusion. Songs keep playing and finally The sailor started playing, she just whines and I just patted her shoulder again. An hour goes on and we back at the convenient store, I bought a coffee she bought some food. We get ready and stuff, and finally go to the venue. After our performance we actually already have plan to change to cosplay as a Yuri character Mitsuki Koga (her) and Aya Oosawa(me), if you're familiar it's usually called green Yuri. When we're cosplaying those, she became so touchy and keep calling me 'bby'. I don't think much about it since I thought she's just in character. She keep hugging me, whining, and get all clingy. We make lots of tiktok trend videos, like 'out of my league', 'take a look of my girlfriend', etc. Times goes by, she keep holding my hand and I just went along with it. And then finally time to go home. I told her my train is at 8.17 pm, and she started panicking since it's 7.30 pm at that time. I told her I'mma take the bus if yk, I failed to catch it. But she's just panicking (queen). Yara yara I actually arrived at the station at 8pm, so we have some times to relax.
But then she just look at me and asked if I really need to go home since I'm a Neet (Not in education, employment, or training), I said yes. She then started whining and hold my hand again. At that point I'm confused and panicking internally. I just said we'll meet again at our next performance and she keep asking if I really need to go home, I said yes again. I jokingly said 'kiss my hand then' since she kept holding it. She did, I just laughed it off nervously. My train shortly arrived afterward, she then just started tearing up. I got super panicked cuz what are you supposed to do at that point???(T\_T). I said my goodbye and she just wave her hand and keep telling me to text her when I got home.
Fast forward to today, we've been texting almost every time(bcs i sleep most of the time and she's a college student). She still called me 'bby', but I just so confused since me and my other mutual called each other by babe, and whatever. So yeah. I'm definitely so confused. She keep telling me she'll visit me and stuff which is..nice? Since i don't go out anyway. But, yeah.
Please let me know what you guys think, I never dated before. And I'm pretty blind to any sign. Please help me with your opinion on what should I do?
Love u all!🐐🐐💕
#adult
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I'm unsure what to tag this. But, this been clouding my mind for the past days.
For the background I'm a Neet(not in employment, education, or training), so I lack social cues. And English is not my first language.
Few weeks ago I started being a mutual with a fellow cosplayer. We've been close since we meet at an idol recruit, and fortunately we passed. And for last week, our idol group were performing at an idol festival far from our home city. So we have to meet up there from Friday to Saturday for practice, and finally Sunday for our performance. We then decided to stayed at hotel together to save up some money for a day. Since my home is about 3 hours and half away, I go back home on Friday night, and only stayed at the hotel for Saturday night.
At Friday, when I arrived at the train station we finally met and just hit it off quick. She's friendly, and all. So it's just really a nice experience. We hangout for about an hour and a half since we start practice at 5 pm, and I got there at 3 pm. She's attentive I would say, not pushy. Before we go to practice, she order us a cab. At practice she's overall keep looking for what time my train supposed to leave and remind me. She even goes to the station with me to pick up her suitcase. So idk- (i feel a little confuse). But bcs of that I get to catch my train, so I feel a little touched.
At Saturday, I once again back at the train station. I inform her that I got there, yara yara. Order a cab, and finally arrived at our shared hotel. Then I called her that I'm finally there, she get out of the hotel and immediately help with my suitcase. I follow her inside and just thanks her repeatedly (cz what can u do atp). When we arrived at our room, it's one bed(i totally forgot about that part). I act cool about it since it's not a small bed. We hang around for 15 minutes before finally go to practice. Practice goes as usual and we go back at the hotel. She took a shower first and then me. To my horror, we didn't get a soap Ó╭╮Ò. So I called out from the bathroom to use hers. Afterwards I change into my coords, and asked if we can go to convenient store. As we walk there, she keep holding my hand, saying that the other side of the road have too much men hanging around, so it's not safe (ok queen). And that's goes each time we go there. So I feel a little weirded out in a best way(?). When we back at the hotel we just hanging out and talk on the bed with my music playing in the background. Suddenly a song played (sailor by Gigi), and she started tweaking (?) idk the word but something like that. We then started talking about our past situationship and laughing about it. Yara yara we go to sleep.
At Sunday morning. I woken up by her alarm, loud ass alarm. So I just crawl over and turn it off, causing her to wake up. She turn up the ac temperatures, and goes back to bed again. I can't go back to sleep and started playing some song. Somehow she called me 'bby (bi-bi)' and ask if I'm awake. I just said yeah, ur alarm is too loud. And she started crawling fetal position at me. Defo I'm panicking internally, and just asked 'are you cold?'. She nodded and I patted her shoulder out of confusion. Songs keep playing and finally The sailor started playing, she just whines and I just patted her shoulder again. An hour goes on and we back at the convenient store, I bought a coffee she bought some food. We get ready and stuff, and finally go to the venue. After our performance we actually already have plan to change to cosplay as a Yuri character Mitsuki Koga (her) and Aya Oosawa(me), if you're familiar it's usually called green Yuri. When we're cosplaying those, she became so touchy and keep calling me 'bby'. I don't think much about it since I thought she's just in character. She keep hugging me, whining, and get all clingy. We make lots of tiktok trend videos, like 'out of my league', 'take a look of my girlfriend', etc. Times goes by, she keep holding my hand and I just went along with it. And then finally time to go home. I told her my train is at 8.17 pm, and she started panicking since it's 7.30 pm at that time. I told her I'mma take the bus if yk, I failed to catch it. But she's just panicking (queen). Yara yara I actually arrived at the station at 8pm, so we have some times to relax.
But then she just look at me and asked if I really need to go home since I'm a Neet (Not in education, employment, or training), I said yes. She then started whining and hold my hand again. At that point I'm confused and panicking internally. I just said we'll meet again at our next performance and she keep asking if I really need to go home, I said yes again. I jokingly said 'kiss my hand then' since she kept holding it. She did, I just laughed it off nervously. My train shortly arrived afterward, she then just started tearing up. I got super panicked cuz what are you supposed to do at that point???(T\_T). I said my goodbye and she just wave her hand and keep telling me to text her when I got home.
Fast forward to today, we've been texting almost every time(bcs i sleep most of the time and she's a college student). She still called me 'bby', but I just so confused since me and my other mutual called each other by babe, and whatever. So yeah. I'm definitely so confused. She keep telling me she'll visit me and stuff which is..nice? Since i don't go out anyway. But, yeah.
Please let me know what you guys think, I never dated before. And I'm pretty blind to any sign. Please help me with your opinion on what should I do?
Love u all!🐐🐐💕
#adult
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