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Nothing wrong with choosing yourself
I started applying for jobs last August. I left my job last November because my mental health couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying after meetings, couldn’t sleep from anxiety, felt like life had no meaning no matter how hard I tried.
When I left, I thought I’d be happy. But no. I had almost no savings left. I started a small business with no clients yet, and I’m still interviewing. Today I had an interview, and it was a flop. They said they were worried if they hire me, my business might do well and I’d leave. I couldn’t explain myself properly, even though I knew they liked me. I was fumbling the whole time.
Lately I lack sleep, but I really don’t want to give up on myself. I feel like there’s more to life than just working. Sometimes I ask myself if all of this makes sense if I cut everything off, would I feel better? I know I wouldn’t. And I won’t, just because not having a job makes life harder.
Things are hard. It sucks. But I’m still grateful for a lot of things. Motivation won’t always be there. That’s okay. There’s nothing wrong with choosing yourself. You’re not the problem. The world is messed up jobs don’t care about us. We’re expected to bust our ass for a 9-5 that doesn’t give a fuck.
I have little savings left Idk really, it sucks so much and i hate it with all my spirit but i hate it so much i want to get out of this situation asap so I'm putting all my heart into my business I'm still going to hop on interviews, whatever.
But I like to think that in the next week or a couple of months this is something i can laugh about. It's exhausting but what can I really do but keep it pushing.
#inspiration
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I started applying for jobs last August. I left my job last November because my mental health couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying after meetings, couldn’t sleep from anxiety, felt like life had no meaning no matter how hard I tried.
When I left, I thought I’d be happy. But no. I had almost no savings left. I started a small business with no clients yet, and I’m still interviewing. Today I had an interview, and it was a flop. They said they were worried if they hire me, my business might do well and I’d leave. I couldn’t explain myself properly, even though I knew they liked me. I was fumbling the whole time.
Lately I lack sleep, but I really don’t want to give up on myself. I feel like there’s more to life than just working. Sometimes I ask myself if all of this makes sense if I cut everything off, would I feel better? I know I wouldn’t. And I won’t, just because not having a job makes life harder.
Things are hard. It sucks. But I’m still grateful for a lot of things. Motivation won’t always be there. That’s okay. There’s nothing wrong with choosing yourself. You’re not the problem. The world is messed up jobs don’t care about us. We’re expected to bust our ass for a 9-5 that doesn’t give a fuck.
I have little savings left Idk really, it sucks so much and i hate it with all my spirit but i hate it so much i want to get out of this situation asap so I'm putting all my heart into my business I'm still going to hop on interviews, whatever.
But I like to think that in the next week or a couple of months this is something i can laugh about. It's exhausting but what can I really do but keep it pushing.
#inspiration
source
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