How does true friendship happen? For context, I'm 26 years…
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How does true friendship happen?
For context, I'm 26 years old, but in life Ive never felt that I've just *clicked* with someone. I've had a difficult childhood, distant parents, ostracized in school, I never belonged anywhere.
Now, I've gotten really good at being a "chameleon" of sorts. I can pass off as "normal" enough, Ive read "How to win friends & influence people", I've studied social dynamics, and my career is literally direct in person conversation with clients. It's not like I don't have any social skills. I still have my own weird idiosyncrasities sure, but I have a decent understanding on how to communicate. My issue is I guess is forming deeper interpersonal relationships.
I can't help but feel like there is a wall separating me and everyone else. I feel no real attachment to anyone outside of my family. Nobody interests me, and nobody is interested in me.
Don't get me wrong, I "like" people, I strive to be kind, respectful, and pleasant. I've made acquaintances, I've met people I would call "friends", but never have I had a "buddy". Nobody that I would want to call out of the blue to "just chat". Nobody that I would want to spend a birthday with, or buy a Christmas gift. Never felt "love".
If I were to drop dead tomorrow my funeral would be all family and have maybe 10 people show up.
I just don't understand how those deeper relationships form. Im worried I might just be defective in some way.
Please share your guy's thoughts and help me figure out how I can better this aspect of my life.
#relationships
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For context, I'm 26 years old, but in life Ive never felt that I've just *clicked* with someone. I've had a difficult childhood, distant parents, ostracized in school, I never belonged anywhere.
Now, I've gotten really good at being a "chameleon" of sorts. I can pass off as "normal" enough, Ive read "How to win friends & influence people", I've studied social dynamics, and my career is literally direct in person conversation with clients. It's not like I don't have any social skills. I still have my own weird idiosyncrasities sure, but I have a decent understanding on how to communicate. My issue is I guess is forming deeper interpersonal relationships.
I can't help but feel like there is a wall separating me and everyone else. I feel no real attachment to anyone outside of my family. Nobody interests me, and nobody is interested in me.
Don't get me wrong, I "like" people, I strive to be kind, respectful, and pleasant. I've made acquaintances, I've met people I would call "friends", but never have I had a "buddy". Nobody that I would want to call out of the blue to "just chat". Nobody that I would want to spend a birthday with, or buy a Christmas gift. Never felt "love".
If I were to drop dead tomorrow my funeral would be all family and have maybe 10 people show up.
I just don't understand how those deeper relationships form. Im worried I might just be defective in some way.
Please share your guy's thoughts and help me figure out how I can better this aspect of my life.
#relationships
source
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