The gap between you and your old self is smaller than it…
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The gap between you and your old self is smaller than it feels
There was a point where I stopped doing the thing that used to make me feel most like myself. Not because something dramatic happened. Life just got busy, then the gap got longer, and returning felt weirdly embarrassing, like I'd let too much time pass to pick it back up without feeling like a beginner again.
That gap became its own barrier. The longer I stayed away, the more the absence felt like a statement, like I'd quietly decided I wasn't that person anymore.
What actually got me back wasn't motivation in the classic sense. It was more like I got tired of the version of myself that had slowly replaced the version I actually liked. That sounds a little dramatic written out, but it's the most accurate way to put it.
The first time back was rough. Felt clunky and slow and nothing like how I remembered it feeling. The second time was a little less rough. And somewhere in there the gap stopped mattering.
If you walked away from something that was genuinely yours and you've been sitting on the edge of returning, the reentry is the hardest part. It doesn't stay that hard
#inspiration
There was a point where I stopped doing the thing that used to make me feel most like myself. Not because something dramatic happened. Life just got busy, then the gap got longer, and returning felt weirdly embarrassing, like I'd let too much time pass to pick it back up without feeling like a beginner again.
That gap became its own barrier. The longer I stayed away, the more the absence felt like a statement, like I'd quietly decided I wasn't that person anymore.
What actually got me back wasn't motivation in the classic sense. It was more like I got tired of the version of myself that had slowly replaced the version I actually liked. That sounds a little dramatic written out, but it's the most accurate way to put it.
The first time back was rough. Felt clunky and slow and nothing like how I remembered it feeling. The second time was a little less rough. And somewhere in there the gap stopped mattering.
If you walked away from something that was genuinely yours and you've been sitting on the edge of returning, the reentry is the hardest part. It doesn't stay that hard
#inspiration
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