overcome late bloomer's jealousy I would describe myself…
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overcome late bloomer's jealousy
I would describe myself as late bloomer because I was excluded from most social life be it friendship relationships, in high school. A couple of years into college, and I still don't fit in anywhere in this social world as I lacked the codes and missed those opportunities
I constructed myself saying "I'm better than these jocks and these club goers" but really, it's only because I wasn't allowed to fit in there and have their "fun". It's not sustainable for me to think that, as it's not honest.
I'm in a relationship (a first) with someone extremely sociable and secure who goes out often with friends and strangers and have fun time. (moments I'm not to be included in, it's not a weird, just not the point).
It bugged me as I'm DEFINITELY not afraid she's not loyal.
I realised what bugs me isn't the men she parties with, it's that I wish I had this life too, I wish I was in "her" place, not "these men".
I'm jealous of her living the life I want to live instead of being happy for her. How do you stop resenting people for being happy in the life you never had and secretly wish for?
I thought redemption was my way but truthfully, I yearn for these dumb night-outs I wouldn't really be invited to.
#relationships
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I would describe myself as late bloomer because I was excluded from most social life be it friendship relationships, in high school. A couple of years into college, and I still don't fit in anywhere in this social world as I lacked the codes and missed those opportunities
I constructed myself saying "I'm better than these jocks and these club goers" but really, it's only because I wasn't allowed to fit in there and have their "fun". It's not sustainable for me to think that, as it's not honest.
I'm in a relationship (a first) with someone extremely sociable and secure who goes out often with friends and strangers and have fun time. (moments I'm not to be included in, it's not a weird, just not the point).
It bugged me as I'm DEFINITELY not afraid she's not loyal.
I realised what bugs me isn't the men she parties with, it's that I wish I had this life too, I wish I was in "her" place, not "these men".
I'm jealous of her living the life I want to live instead of being happy for her. How do you stop resenting people for being happy in the life you never had and secretly wish for?
I thought redemption was my way but truthfully, I yearn for these dumb night-outs I wouldn't really be invited to.
#relationships
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