I want to improve my life as I am a failure but feel…
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I want to improve my life as I am a failure but feel trapped
I am a 29 year old transgender woman in Texas. I have one 12 year old daughter, a partner who i live with, althought I am only able to see my child fri-sun and most holidays.
I want to start by saying whats wrong with my life.
My daughter doesnt ever want to be around me unless its for money. I have asked her if she's embarrassed about me being transgender, which she declines. However, everyone always asks me this question when I seek parenting support/advice. She gets upset when I won't spend $1k at the mall with her. She has told me that there is no point of leaving the house if she isn't spending $100 on herself. She begged me for am iphone 17, I got it for her. She begged me for the new iPad, she came with me but didnt even get out of the car to go inside the apple store. She just sends me on errands for her most of the time while she waits in the car. She doesnt ever talk to me about herself and always says she's fine. I have put her into therapy but it isn't helping much. I really feel like me trying to be emotionally and physically available for her is causing her distress and she only needs me financially. She doesnt care to listen to me when I try to teach her about values or anything.
My career sucks. I fucked up and got a bachelor's and an associates in psychology, B.S. im in grad school for counseling but I have no faith as they recently removed CACREP accreditation for my program. I make 42k a year and barely getting by. My child support eats up most of my income and my child's mom is asking for more. I work as a psychometrists and there is no room for elevation. I am in a dead end career. I want to get out of mental health and into tech but no one ever hires me. Id be so happy with 30 bucks an hour.
My partner barely spends time with me, she's always at work, sleeping, or having anxiety issues that has honestly tanked the way I feel about her. She always incorrectly assumes im upset with her or is freaking out about something, raising her voice at me, she can't ever just exist with me. She is really unsupportive of me overall and I have given up on a lot of "ventures" before even starting simply because my partners first initial reaction was assuming id fail.
I dont have many friends that like me. Maybe a few, but overall, people rarely hit me up to hang individually or even check on me.
I am very unhappy with my body. I've stopped taking my hormone medication cause it felt useless. After 8 years, I look worst and more masculine than ever. I have considered suicide many times.
#inspiration
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I am a 29 year old transgender woman in Texas. I have one 12 year old daughter, a partner who i live with, althought I am only able to see my child fri-sun and most holidays.
I want to start by saying whats wrong with my life.
My daughter doesnt ever want to be around me unless its for money. I have asked her if she's embarrassed about me being transgender, which she declines. However, everyone always asks me this question when I seek parenting support/advice. She gets upset when I won't spend $1k at the mall with her. She has told me that there is no point of leaving the house if she isn't spending $100 on herself. She begged me for am iphone 17, I got it for her. She begged me for the new iPad, she came with me but didnt even get out of the car to go inside the apple store. She just sends me on errands for her most of the time while she waits in the car. She doesnt ever talk to me about herself and always says she's fine. I have put her into therapy but it isn't helping much. I really feel like me trying to be emotionally and physically available for her is causing her distress and she only needs me financially. She doesnt care to listen to me when I try to teach her about values or anything.
My career sucks. I fucked up and got a bachelor's and an associates in psychology, B.S. im in grad school for counseling but I have no faith as they recently removed CACREP accreditation for my program. I make 42k a year and barely getting by. My child support eats up most of my income and my child's mom is asking for more. I work as a psychometrists and there is no room for elevation. I am in a dead end career. I want to get out of mental health and into tech but no one ever hires me. Id be so happy with 30 bucks an hour.
My partner barely spends time with me, she's always at work, sleeping, or having anxiety issues that has honestly tanked the way I feel about her. She always incorrectly assumes im upset with her or is freaking out about something, raising her voice at me, she can't ever just exist with me. She is really unsupportive of me overall and I have given up on a lot of "ventures" before even starting simply because my partners first initial reaction was assuming id fail.
I dont have many friends that like me. Maybe a few, but overall, people rarely hit me up to hang individually or even check on me.
I am very unhappy with my body. I've stopped taking my hormone medication cause it felt useless. After 8 years, I look worst and more masculine than ever. I have considered suicide many times.
#inspiration
source
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