How to restart agency in my life hey y’all. I’ve been…
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How to restart agency in my life
hey y’all. I’ve been trying to muster up my agency which has been dead for 3 years now, since I had a mental breakdown in which I don’t trust myself to pursue what I want. I feel broken in this area. Writing (my past form of creativity) feels useless and causes me stress. Pursuing fun events, doing side gigs, seeking out hobbies - it doesn’t matter.
I just work (as a server / bartender again, used to work in a corporate setting which is partially why I had a break down. I love talking to randos (but not building connections with people, I get scared of those - again because of trauma).
im stubborn now. I don’t want someone to tell me how to do something. I want to learn on my own and only for practical reasons.
i only seem to enjoy company, drinking, weed now and then, smoking now and then, and consuming media. But the enjoyment feels false - I used to love building something or working towards something. But my brain feels pretty broken in its capacity for long term visionary thinking.
anybody familiar with this?
#inspiration
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hey y’all. I’ve been trying to muster up my agency which has been dead for 3 years now, since I had a mental breakdown in which I don’t trust myself to pursue what I want. I feel broken in this area. Writing (my past form of creativity) feels useless and causes me stress. Pursuing fun events, doing side gigs, seeking out hobbies - it doesn’t matter.
I just work (as a server / bartender again, used to work in a corporate setting which is partially why I had a break down. I love talking to randos (but not building connections with people, I get scared of those - again because of trauma).
im stubborn now. I don’t want someone to tell me how to do something. I want to learn on my own and only for practical reasons.
i only seem to enjoy company, drinking, weed now and then, smoking now and then, and consuming media. But the enjoyment feels false - I used to love building something or working towards something. But my brain feels pretty broken in its capacity for long term visionary thinking.
anybody familiar with this?
#inspiration
source
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