just had my worst day of high school so far for a little…
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just had my worst day of high school so far
for a little background, i have severe social anxiety to the point that i struggle asking to use the restroom in class. anyway, here’s the story.
so there’s these two guys in my class that are complete assholes and they’re racist, homophobic, antisemitic, and basically anything else bad you can think of. let’s say one’s name is john and the other’s is bob.
so i’m just chilling in the back of the classroom doing my physics homework, when i suddenly hear out of my left ear bob say “hey who’s that. i don’t even know his name.” me having social anxiety, i immediately think they’re talking to me so i freeze up and continue working. then john says “i think his name’s bill (not my actual name for privacy reasons but they did get it correct).”
now i know that they’re probably talking to me, so i looked over to them and said “what.” then this is where it like goes crazy bruh.
freaking bob says “i hate you” for literally zero reason. i ignore it and ask why they’re staring at me weirdly, but then bob turns to john and says “i hate him”. like okay bro we heard you the first time. the girls they’re sitting with are laughing and shit. i don’t know what i did to make bro say that so i lowkey felt like crying, but this isn’t the worst of what they said tbh. john replies to bob while looking directly at me saying “yeah i hate your nose…and your lips.” like bruh what did i doooo😭😭😭.
then bob walked over and said my lips looked like a “black person’s” and called me the hard r. they’re both white asf by the way. i responded with a simple “okay” and didn’t really make eye contact bc that shit’s scary, but that racist “joke” didn’t effect me too much. it was more immature than anything.
anyway idk bruh that had me sad for a bit afterward. i love myself but i’m still human, so sometimes i feel a bit insecure about certain things. that whole interaction also made me feel angry at myself for not being able to standup for myself, which made me want to cry more. i’ve been trying to work on my social skills a lot recently, but this interaction really showed me how cruel certain people can be, and it reminded me how antisocial i am at this current moment and how much work i have left to do. it was a little demotivating.
if you have any advice for not letting immature dickheads like this hinder my ability to continue working on myself please reply to this.
thank you!🖤
#relationships
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for a little background, i have severe social anxiety to the point that i struggle asking to use the restroom in class. anyway, here’s the story.
so there’s these two guys in my class that are complete assholes and they’re racist, homophobic, antisemitic, and basically anything else bad you can think of. let’s say one’s name is john and the other’s is bob.
so i’m just chilling in the back of the classroom doing my physics homework, when i suddenly hear out of my left ear bob say “hey who’s that. i don’t even know his name.” me having social anxiety, i immediately think they’re talking to me so i freeze up and continue working. then john says “i think his name’s bill (not my actual name for privacy reasons but they did get it correct).”
now i know that they’re probably talking to me, so i looked over to them and said “what.” then this is where it like goes crazy bruh.
freaking bob says “i hate you” for literally zero reason. i ignore it and ask why they’re staring at me weirdly, but then bob turns to john and says “i hate him”. like okay bro we heard you the first time. the girls they’re sitting with are laughing and shit. i don’t know what i did to make bro say that so i lowkey felt like crying, but this isn’t the worst of what they said tbh. john replies to bob while looking directly at me saying “yeah i hate your nose…and your lips.” like bruh what did i doooo😭😭😭.
then bob walked over and said my lips looked like a “black person’s” and called me the hard r. they’re both white asf by the way. i responded with a simple “okay” and didn’t really make eye contact bc that shit’s scary, but that racist “joke” didn’t effect me too much. it was more immature than anything.
anyway idk bruh that had me sad for a bit afterward. i love myself but i’m still human, so sometimes i feel a bit insecure about certain things. that whole interaction also made me feel angry at myself for not being able to standup for myself, which made me want to cry more. i’ve been trying to work on my social skills a lot recently, but this interaction really showed me how cruel certain people can be, and it reminded me how antisocial i am at this current moment and how much work i have left to do. it was a little demotivating.
if you have any advice for not letting immature dickheads like this hinder my ability to continue working on myself please reply to this.
thank you!🖤
#relationships
source
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