May Update: Complete relapse across the board, but I need…
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May Update: Complete relapse across the board, but I need to get back on my feet now.
Porn & Masturbation: Total downfall. Once I relapsed that first time, an avalanche followed. I hide in corners to do it all the time. It doesn't even bring me any joy anymore, and I waste so much time just looking for content "worthy" enough to finish to.
Healthy Eating:Fortunately, no major drama here, but I am definitely eating fewer vegetables.
Alcohol & Other Substances: Doing fine here, staying clean.
Sport: Total failure. I did absolutely nothing. A complete couch potato.
Doomscrolling: Oh my god. Outside of masturbating, doomscrolling is literally the only other thing I do.
Social Life: Poor, no changes here.
Marriage: Obviously, the doomscrolling and the porn come directly at the cost of spending time with my wife.
Dad: The exact same as above. I am neglecting my relationship with my dad.
Learning English: Poor. I am systematically doing my flashcards, but I won't learn to build proper sentences using flashcards alone.
Future Outlook: I see my future in very dark colors right now.
Overall Self-Satisfaction: -100. I am extremely disappointed in myself.
Current Goal: My goal right now is not to wait for the new year to get my act together, but to get back on my feet as quickly as possible.
#inspiration
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Porn & Masturbation: Total downfall. Once I relapsed that first time, an avalanche followed. I hide in corners to do it all the time. It doesn't even bring me any joy anymore, and I waste so much time just looking for content "worthy" enough to finish to.
Healthy Eating:Fortunately, no major drama here, but I am definitely eating fewer vegetables.
Alcohol & Other Substances: Doing fine here, staying clean.
Sport: Total failure. I did absolutely nothing. A complete couch potato.
Doomscrolling: Oh my god. Outside of masturbating, doomscrolling is literally the only other thing I do.
Social Life: Poor, no changes here.
Marriage: Obviously, the doomscrolling and the porn come directly at the cost of spending time with my wife.
Dad: The exact same as above. I am neglecting my relationship with my dad.
Learning English: Poor. I am systematically doing my flashcards, but I won't learn to build proper sentences using flashcards alone.
Future Outlook: I see my future in very dark colors right now.
Overall Self-Satisfaction: -100. I am extremely disappointed in myself.
Current Goal: My goal right now is not to wait for the new year to get my act together, but to get back on my feet as quickly as possible.
#inspiration
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