I tend to feel bad about myself whenever I hang out with…
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I tend to feel bad about myself whenever I hang out with my friends
I just wanna start off by saying my friends are AMAZING. But whenever we hangout, I feel this sense of loneliness and sadness in my body. I would say I'm generally introverted but I am social and would likely approach people, that's how I became friends with them. There are four of us in the friend group, and I don't mean to self pity at all but I feel so low compared to them. Maybe I just have a very low self esteem, I can't help but see all my flaws whenever we hangout. Because I genuinely find them so cool, that my social skills disappear the longer I spend time with them. They notice it too and doesn't necessarily bring it up but they can feel my quietness. I am so insecure about how natural they're talking and laughing with each other that I can't control my sadness and dread that I feel. I've had a lot of people come up to me to say that I'm so cool and magnetic and all that, but I just can't truly believe it. I want to feel good with these hangouts and sometimes I would just come up with an excuse so that I wouldn't go to the hangout because I'm afraid I'll tag along my sadness with me again.
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I just wanna start off by saying my friends are AMAZING. But whenever we hangout, I feel this sense of loneliness and sadness in my body. I would say I'm generally introverted but I am social and would likely approach people, that's how I became friends with them. There are four of us in the friend group, and I don't mean to self pity at all but I feel so low compared to them. Maybe I just have a very low self esteem, I can't help but see all my flaws whenever we hangout. Because I genuinely find them so cool, that my social skills disappear the longer I spend time with them. They notice it too and doesn't necessarily bring it up but they can feel my quietness. I am so insecure about how natural they're talking and laughing with each other that I can't control my sadness and dread that I feel. I've had a lot of people come up to me to say that I'm so cool and magnetic and all that, but I just can't truly believe it. I want to feel good with these hangouts and sometimes I would just come up with an excuse so that I wouldn't go to the hangout because I'm afraid I'll tag along my sadness with me again.
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