I just realized that i’m very judgemental I can’t form…
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I just realized that i’m very judgemental
I can’t form friendships because i’m never ready for any kind of relationship, I always end up getting the ick/judging ppl when i really get to know them and because I struggle at being fake I end up ghosting them because they don’t deserve this. I care so much about my image and I find myself trying to solve and understand how others can be carefree and “have no shame” which is a harsh judgement, but growing up my mom was trying to raise perfect children, and was teaching us that we are “supposed” to be a certain way and that there’s always a right way to do smth. because of all this I became a perfectionist. I am average and being a perfectionist means I have high standards for myself and I assume that reaching them should be the baseline. but because i’m not perfect and it’s impossible for me to reach those standards I just end up feeling disappointed all the time and I guess i hold others to the same standards. how can i change? i went to therapy and i got diagnosed with bpd which makes sense but i know why i’m here so how can i change?
#relationships
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I can’t form friendships because i’m never ready for any kind of relationship, I always end up getting the ick/judging ppl when i really get to know them and because I struggle at being fake I end up ghosting them because they don’t deserve this. I care so much about my image and I find myself trying to solve and understand how others can be carefree and “have no shame” which is a harsh judgement, but growing up my mom was trying to raise perfect children, and was teaching us that we are “supposed” to be a certain way and that there’s always a right way to do smth. because of all this I became a perfectionist. I am average and being a perfectionist means I have high standards for myself and I assume that reaching them should be the baseline. but because i’m not perfect and it’s impossible for me to reach those standards I just end up feeling disappointed all the time and I guess i hold others to the same standards. how can i change? i went to therapy and i got diagnosed with bpd which makes sense but i know why i’m here so how can i change?
#relationships
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