Nobody could have prepared me for how utterly hard this…
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Nobody could have prepared me for how utterly hard this journey is
I took a look at my progress bar graph I keep where I track the scores of some mock tests. Over the course of 2 months, I have nothing. No improvement. At all. My score is still floating around the same range. 2 months of hard work, of dedicating my time and effort into this, and just nothing.
I had a mistake log, I practised every day, I tried my best to think about problems but often times would just end up staring and then seeing the solution. What more could I have *possibly* done? This feels like my dream of being a great problem solver and being able to learn the language of the universe is shattered. There must be *something* in me, something fundamentally broken that I haven't improved even a little bit even after giving my heart and soul for this.
And I break down every time I think about it. Honestly, I dont even know how many of these I can take. I dont know how long I can tolerate feeling *this* stupid, even when Im doing everything I can. I just *never* have the first step and end up staring at the problem, even when I change up the difficulties.
I don't want to give up, I really don't want to, but Im not sure if I'll even get somewhere if I keep going, maybe I'm just not meant to.
Have you all ever felt like this due to *Math?* Sounds stupid to ask, feeling so shattered because of a subject, but if you did and got through it, hearing it could really help right now
P.S: And for context I've been doing Olympiad styled Math:D
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I took a look at my progress bar graph I keep where I track the scores of some mock tests. Over the course of 2 months, I have nothing. No improvement. At all. My score is still floating around the same range. 2 months of hard work, of dedicating my time and effort into this, and just nothing.
I had a mistake log, I practised every day, I tried my best to think about problems but often times would just end up staring and then seeing the solution. What more could I have *possibly* done? This feels like my dream of being a great problem solver and being able to learn the language of the universe is shattered. There must be *something* in me, something fundamentally broken that I haven't improved even a little bit even after giving my heart and soul for this.
And I break down every time I think about it. Honestly, I dont even know how many of these I can take. I dont know how long I can tolerate feeling *this* stupid, even when Im doing everything I can. I just *never* have the first step and end up staring at the problem, even when I change up the difficulties.
I don't want to give up, I really don't want to, but Im not sure if I'll even get somewhere if I keep going, maybe I'm just not meant to.
Have you all ever felt like this due to *Math?* Sounds stupid to ask, feeling so shattered because of a subject, but if you did and got through it, hearing it could really help right now
P.S: And for context I've been doing Olympiad styled Math:D
#science
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