30 years old today. It’s not where I expected to be, but…
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30 years old today. It’s not where I expected to be, but it’s a start.
I turned 30 today, and looking back, I realize my life changed forever about four months ago—for the worse.
I’m sharing this because I just felt the need to get it off my chest. To put it briefly, February 2026 was an absolute storm for me. I can’t go into the details right now, but my world turned upside down in a way that left me permanently changed. My career, my reputation, and so much else fell apart, and I take full responsibility for the choices that led me there.
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For the last few months, I’ve been confined mostly to my house, which has given me an immense amount of time to think. It’s been a heavy, transformative period, but I’ve been fighting to turn that time into something positive. I’ve focused entirely on bettering myself: I’ve lost 30 lbs, I finally feel healthy again, and the muscles I built from years of lifting are finally starting to show through. I’ve leaned into meditation, trying to stay present in a life that feels very different from the one I knew. Most importantly, I’m doing everything I can to hold onto the relationships I still have.
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I’ve always wanted to start a YouTube channel, but for years, I hid behind the excuse of 100-hour work weeks. Now, for better or worse, I have the time. The momentum is slow, but I’ve started uploading short, two-minute videos every day, sharing the lessons I’ve learned during this difficult season.
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This isn't where I imagined I’d be at 30, but I’m going to keep my head up. I’m learning from my mistakes and trying to be a better person every single day. The road ahead is uncertain, and there is so much I don’t know about what the next few years will hold. But I wanted to share this because, no matter how dark things get mentally, there is always a way to find the light and usually, you have to be the one to generate that light yourself.
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Thanks for taking the time to read this.
#inspiration
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I turned 30 today, and looking back, I realize my life changed forever about four months ago—for the worse.
I’m sharing this because I just felt the need to get it off my chest. To put it briefly, February 2026 was an absolute storm for me. I can’t go into the details right now, but my world turned upside down in a way that left me permanently changed. My career, my reputation, and so much else fell apart, and I take full responsibility for the choices that led me there.
​
For the last few months, I’ve been confined mostly to my house, which has given me an immense amount of time to think. It’s been a heavy, transformative period, but I’ve been fighting to turn that time into something positive. I’ve focused entirely on bettering myself: I’ve lost 30 lbs, I finally feel healthy again, and the muscles I built from years of lifting are finally starting to show through. I’ve leaned into meditation, trying to stay present in a life that feels very different from the one I knew. Most importantly, I’m doing everything I can to hold onto the relationships I still have.
​
I’ve always wanted to start a YouTube channel, but for years, I hid behind the excuse of 100-hour work weeks. Now, for better or worse, I have the time. The momentum is slow, but I’ve started uploading short, two-minute videos every day, sharing the lessons I’ve learned during this difficult season.
​
This isn't where I imagined I’d be at 30, but I’m going to keep my head up. I’m learning from my mistakes and trying to be a better person every single day. The road ahead is uncertain, and there is so much I don’t know about what the next few years will hold. But I wanted to share this because, no matter how dark things get mentally, there is always a way to find the light and usually, you have to be the one to generate that light yourself.
​
Thanks for taking the time to read this.
#inspiration
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