That story hurts because it’s real. Twenty years is not small. Kids are not small. But neither is betrayal.
If I were in that situation:
• Stay for the kids, or walk away? If there is ongoing cheating and addiction with no real change, I would walk away. Kids need a peaceful home more than a “together” home full of pain and disrespect. Staying in constant hurt teaches them the wrong lesson about love.
• Fight for reconciliation, or protect your peace? I would try once only if the person truly wants help (therapy, rehab, accountability). If he don’t choose change, I protect my peace. You can’t fight alone for a marriage.
• One key advice right now? Don’t beg someone to choose_attach someone who already walked away in their heart. Choose yourself. Keep your dignity. Pain will pass, but self-respect stays.
• How to rebuild solo? Start simple.
Therapy or someone safe to talk to. Exercise, even small walks. Spend real time with your kids. Reconnect with old friends. Don’t rush dating. Heal first. Build a life that feels steady before inviting someone new into it.
• Kids involved—co-parent or low/no contact? If the other parent is safe and responsible, co-parent calmly and keep it about the kids only. If addiction or chaos continues, limit contact and protect the children emotionally and physically.
Now your last question:
“What joy can come from life with someone who boldly stopped choosing you long ago?”
Very little. Love needs two people choosing each other again and again. If only one person is choosing, it’s not partnership it’s loneliness inside a relationship. The only possible joy would be comfort of familiarity or fear of being alone—but that’s not real joy. Real joy comes from mutual respect, safety, and being wanted. Sometimes walking away is not giving up. Sometimes it’s the first time you truly choose yourself.