i try to put myself out there by doing things that make me uncomfortable however i keep making excuses like what if in the midst of putting myself out there. all i do is feel embarrassed and act awkward.
i have this habit of rushing through conversations and trying to end it quickly even when i want to talk. i keep rushing and im not relaxed in conversations
when does that feeling ever go away?
im afraid of being known as the awkward one, even though i know that by doing things outside of my comfort zone. my social anxiety is supposed to get better?
honestly over the past 3 months i've seen so much growth in myself and i am in a happier place with great people.
but its so exhausting always having to push myself and improve just to feel like im keeping up with people without social anxiety.