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If I can, You can too
I'll do my best to keep this conscise do forgive if i seem to ramble on. This is my story of the last 3 years.
Early 2023, my gf at the time ended things between us. After 8 years it felt as though my world had been kicked to the ground. Little did i know, it'd change my life for the better. I was working a part time job, enough to pay bills & necessities, i lived with a roommate at the time, & my mental state was gone. Every part of me hurt, i had spent most of my 20s (& those 8 years of relationship), escaping my head/inner traumas by being high. I was chasing ghosts, without really admitting it to myself. I crashed out, stayed in a single room, wrote my thoughts on walls, to let wtvr storm in my brain out.
Mid 2023, i changed jobs - from working inside part time, to being outdoors doing landscaping fulltime. Made new connections, had good times with work collegues. Life seemed to be on a better track. A year later, i moved out - things between my roommate & I weren't the greatest - we were best friends before living together, & my down attitude crumbled most of the trust & safety of things. I left, not ever expecting to speak again. At the time, i thought it was the best thing to do for both of us, that she didn't need that torment in her life. & i was so numb from my own escapades, i knew i was sad, i just couldn't let me actually feel it.
Life went on, we did eventually start talking again, & it felt sweet. There was no animosity, no fights, just two friends reconnecting for real. Fast forward to 2025, i decided to go back to school, after being out for the last decade, & study a trade. One that would give me a higher spot within my outside job. Came to an agreement with work, & left. My best friend helped me out financially during this time, & let me tell you it was a constant battle.
I knew it wasn't going to be easy, in my early 30s going back to school & learn a trade which was physically demanding. & some moments i doubted my capabilities of succeeding, that i wasnt fit for this potential job. Too much of my anxious brain spitting trash where id be in a small state of what the fuck am i doing here. I pushed through, studied, put the time. Some classes/days i skipped either cause i wasnt feeling well, or i flat out didnt want to go. It was quite the commute from my place too, & before having my drivers liscence, i hitched rides or took dreaded buses to get there & back.
But every step of the way, my best friend was there. "We're in this together!" she'd say. & through all my doubts, turmoils, feeling in ruins, she stook around. We cooked more, stayed in, found joy in the small things. & after 8 months of school, i got my diploma! I succeeded in a task i wanted to do for life as a career. Something i never thought id have - i had come to terms with simply working remedial jobs, never a career. I've been back at work since early June 2026, working in the field i studied for, & life feels pretty great, regardless of my financial debts to slowly clear up.
I was a wreck in my 20s, not truly knowing it was based on what had happened in my childhood. Physically here, but mentally & in my heart always elsewhere. I rewrote my late 20s to shed the weight i carried (through therapy sessions, & my own personal LSD trips), & my early 30s saw a giant step to take to continue my own growth. I've been with my best friend for 2 years now, & she's an amazing person - i never thank her enough for the help, i am grateful to have her in my life :)
It's ok to not be ok, & not feel like you're where you want to be in the current time/age. All i wish to say, Life's not a race, no use to belittle YOU, because someone else seems to have their life together. We all struggle, i still do in some aspects. Sometimes we do need a push, most times we should be our own best friend to pull us from whatever. It's never too late to start again, to change & go after the goals we set. I feel better in my skin at 30, than i had any time before.
Do the thing you've been putting off, try that new restaurant, watch some old shows which you enjoyed long ago. Do the things you want to do, set the goals you want to achieve. Little by little, you'll cross off more than you leave behind on that goal pad. They don't need to be grand, only mean something to you.
I believe in your strengths, as ive come to believe in mine, with a little help from my best friend.
#inspiration
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I'll do my best to keep this conscise do forgive if i seem to ramble on. This is my story of the last 3 years.
Early 2023, my gf at the time ended things between us. After 8 years it felt as though my world had been kicked to the ground. Little did i know, it'd change my life for the better. I was working a part time job, enough to pay bills & necessities, i lived with a roommate at the time, & my mental state was gone. Every part of me hurt, i had spent most of my 20s (& those 8 years of relationship), escaping my head/inner traumas by being high. I was chasing ghosts, without really admitting it to myself. I crashed out, stayed in a single room, wrote my thoughts on walls, to let wtvr storm in my brain out.
Mid 2023, i changed jobs - from working inside part time, to being outdoors doing landscaping fulltime. Made new connections, had good times with work collegues. Life seemed to be on a better track. A year later, i moved out - things between my roommate & I weren't the greatest - we were best friends before living together, & my down attitude crumbled most of the trust & safety of things. I left, not ever expecting to speak again. At the time, i thought it was the best thing to do for both of us, that she didn't need that torment in her life. & i was so numb from my own escapades, i knew i was sad, i just couldn't let me actually feel it.
Life went on, we did eventually start talking again, & it felt sweet. There was no animosity, no fights, just two friends reconnecting for real. Fast forward to 2025, i decided to go back to school, after being out for the last decade, & study a trade. One that would give me a higher spot within my outside job. Came to an agreement with work, & left. My best friend helped me out financially during this time, & let me tell you it was a constant battle.
I knew it wasn't going to be easy, in my early 30s going back to school & learn a trade which was physically demanding. & some moments i doubted my capabilities of succeeding, that i wasnt fit for this potential job. Too much of my anxious brain spitting trash where id be in a small state of what the fuck am i doing here. I pushed through, studied, put the time. Some classes/days i skipped either cause i wasnt feeling well, or i flat out didnt want to go. It was quite the commute from my place too, & before having my drivers liscence, i hitched rides or took dreaded buses to get there & back.
But every step of the way, my best friend was there. "We're in this together!" she'd say. & through all my doubts, turmoils, feeling in ruins, she stook around. We cooked more, stayed in, found joy in the small things. & after 8 months of school, i got my diploma! I succeeded in a task i wanted to do for life as a career. Something i never thought id have - i had come to terms with simply working remedial jobs, never a career. I've been back at work since early June 2026, working in the field i studied for, & life feels pretty great, regardless of my financial debts to slowly clear up.
I was a wreck in my 20s, not truly knowing it was based on what had happened in my childhood. Physically here, but mentally & in my heart always elsewhere. I rewrote my late 20s to shed the weight i carried (through therapy sessions, & my own personal LSD trips), & my early 30s saw a giant step to take to continue my own growth. I've been with my best friend for 2 years now, & she's an amazing person - i never thank her enough for the help, i am grateful to have her in my life :)
It's ok to not be ok, & not feel like you're where you want to be in the current time/age. All i wish to say, Life's not a race, no use to belittle YOU, because someone else seems to have their life together. We all struggle, i still do in some aspects. Sometimes we do need a push, most times we should be our own best friend to pull us from whatever. It's never too late to start again, to change & go after the goals we set. I feel better in my skin at 30, than i had any time before.
Do the thing you've been putting off, try that new restaurant, watch some old shows which you enjoyed long ago. Do the things you want to do, set the goals you want to achieve. Little by little, you'll cross off more than you leave behind on that goal pad. They don't need to be grand, only mean something to you.
I believe in your strengths, as ive come to believe in mine, with a little help from my best friend.
#inspiration
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