How do I salvage the fact that I can’t fuck my girlfriend like her ex did? Not going to bore all of you with stuff about how we met so I’m just going to get into it cause it honestly makes me want to throw up just thinking about it. Long story short, me and my girlfriend were hanging out with some friends and we’re getting drunk and ended up playing truth or dare. And when she picked truth, someone asked her what her favorite sex position was. She answered with a position that as far as I know doesn’t have a specific name and described it in relatively vivid detail. This is a position we’ve never done so I was a bit upset that she never wanted to try it with me and i was definitely hurt but I ignored it for the sake of the night. Once we got home I asked her about it and she said that the position leaves a fair amount of the dick out, and that because mine was smaller, she wouldn’t be able to move on it properly and she would only really be trying to maneuver on the head of penis, whereas her ex was much bigger so he was still able to fill her up and hit the right spots even in that position. This obviously destroyed me and that must’ve been obvious on my face cause she immediately tried to console me. She-said that sex with me is still great and that it’s ok we can’t do everything together she did with him, and that there were still other things we could try. She said that she was happy with our sex life and my size was enough for her, just not for that position. When she woke up she apologized for telling me about it and mentioning something from A past lover with me there. She probably wouldn’t have but she was drunk and hadn’t had the forethought to consider how I would feel about it I want to believe her, but I just can’t. Our relationship is great outside of this and I’m very attentive in bed. I give her head, do lots of foreplay and am largely focused on her pleasures because I enjoy it. However I’m not really able to shake the feeling that I’m actually inadequate and that she’s saying I’m good/big enough just because she likes the other things about our relationship and that secretly she wishes I was her ex. It’s not even like the ex was some douchebag, things didn’t work between them, but I know the guy and he’s a pretty decent dude. I don’t know what to do, the idea of having sex with her just feels almost revolting at this point and my insecurities are spiking. What can I do to try to move past this? Or is it a lost cause? Edit: for All of you making jokes saying I’m immature and that size isn’t everything. I know, and it’s not the fact that he was bigger that’s the problem, but that he was BETTER. And I can’t hope to replicate it, because I wasn’t born with enough. Edit 2: everyone saying, it doesn’t matter because now she’s with me and if she wanted him she’d still be with him is just wrong. The breakup was mutual, but initiated by him and even if she wanted him to stay he wouldn’t have. She understood why it had to happen but he was the one who was ready to move on first.